Nothing between

I'm starting to understand laoshi's conviction.

I'm struggling to manage a recreation.
I finally got down to removing it completely and break off all return paths, instead of allowing myself to argue whether I'm addicted to it or not and whether I deserve a second chance to try to manage it again.

And I'm conscious that sinful nature does not go away. The war wages on.

And I need to practise the putting on - "For this I toil."
If not, I'll be worse off in the end.

"strengthen my hands..."